tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-91672468361059148522024-03-13T11:43:17.543-07:00Scribble, Scratch, Surrenderfrankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-44273924794653281512011-04-12T12:38:00.001-07:002011-04-12T12:38:52.613-07:00"The Singing Butler"...apparently<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisH6nX3TKC9oIa71d2iScOAr-G_eYNCMS4BumBV6jpsJ4o5Zunxri6luMYQa_EmE_pTOjaPtdftsDwBHetU0tmYN16KDU0Yxo2DQeTyNCkwv29u3P_3FkKgplx2J61fJaX9KBtZwxUqOmH/s1600/The-Singing-Butler.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 334px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisH6nX3TKC9oIa71d2iScOAr-G_eYNCMS4BumBV6jpsJ4o5Zunxri6luMYQa_EmE_pTOjaPtdftsDwBHetU0tmYN16KDU0Yxo2DQeTyNCkwv29u3P_3FkKgplx2J61fJaX9KBtZwxUqOmH/s400/The-Singing-Butler.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5594783809647284146" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />George and Katie are not the ones dancing. Katie doesn’t get to sweep her red dress across the sand and George doesn’t get to hold her on the edge of waves lit by the glowing horizon. Katie doesn’t get to take off her shoes and George must leave on his black hat. The wind makes fun of Katie’s apron and lifts it up for anyone to see. George keeps the umbrella held above the heads of people he wants to be. People he must’ve been like in one lifetime and now it’s their turn to be wealthy, beautiful, and catered on. To have your heads shielded my two umbrellas when rain hasn’t even begun to fall. George stand on the ready for a voice that says “I need you here,” “please do that,” “oh could you be a dear…” George isn’t singing and Katie isn’t dancing. The wind, waves, and shells rumbling across sand are singing and the couple whose blind past their horizon is spinning, gliding, waltzing along. Does this scene deserve a pity remark? Perhaps, someone will mistake this picture for something lovely and timeless? A picture where George is singing, Katie is dancing, and swaying until her skirt skips up? George and Katie are not the ones dancing.frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-50990668529219890232011-04-04T14:20:00.000-07:002011-04-07T11:32:17.586-07:00We got in a fight, she stormed out, I wrote<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2V3KsS11tlggOYx7Wj2jziq1O3Q2zfTyzoBa9GY0iHVQU8A0AAvb3__2dic6IFt1kiVct1ASyxQB-kYXVrnoCdDv7VQpwqaPfS1uxZOaKddVQEnsivzoTxZdXmlylfc4Q5tf7_s68IT4p/s1600/cat-fight.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 324px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2V3KsS11tlggOYx7Wj2jziq1O3Q2zfTyzoBa9GY0iHVQU8A0AAvb3__2dic6IFt1kiVct1ASyxQB-kYXVrnoCdDv7VQpwqaPfS1uxZOaKddVQEnsivzoTxZdXmlylfc4Q5tf7_s68IT4p/s400/cat-fight.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5591847188513305762" /></a><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Before you read I would just like to thank the friend that made me so upset in the first place. All is forgiven and there are no hard feelings but it was just amazing how after she left my throbbing heard trembled down these words to write. So I guess I dedicate this to the friend that I love more than a lot of things and the friend that can tick me off more than a lot of things. I love you and I love you stubborn soul.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">If she could’ve only seem me. The anger that rattles my teeth shaking my lips vibrating my words. My throat parched for understanding for the right words to say to hear. The eyes are throbbing deep in the socket where water crashes against the dam crying crying dying to get out. The sad thing worse thing is that I don’t want to hear your footsteps back inside coming back from wherever you’ve been behind that slammed door. The nosey cat lays dead on what is wrong with you? What I did? And how long will you be gone? My only question is do you want your shirts rolled or folded in your big idle suitcase that’s been waiting all along. </span>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-60606138043078982182011-03-24T06:24:00.000-07:002011-03-24T06:25:56.306-07:00BrightEyes<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwDF5IF9W2dQWh6vKJ1VvXAcIQPd5WhyphenhyphenLznNFV1iapTu4ikjD_CFbvT075wEo-vsbZ4-SMM-acYvYNUzNXOZ4h41pG4a6Ml483EthO2D6tSAiaTUmdi3LkiWRdkT0sGtXg3I8EP_T6kyZP/s1600/bright+eyes.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwDF5IF9W2dQWh6vKJ1VvXAcIQPd5WhyphenhyphenLznNFV1iapTu4ikjD_CFbvT075wEo-vsbZ4-SMM-acYvYNUzNXOZ4h41pG4a6Ml483EthO2D6tSAiaTUmdi3LkiWRdkT0sGtXg3I8EP_T6kyZP/s400/bright+eyes.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5587637020418589922" /></a>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-28274651427065762252011-03-16T12:04:00.000-07:002011-03-16T12:17:32.028-07:00Happy Father's Day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcZWZ1xzUo7V3gMrYBW-maXdZ0Bta-38-bkmlIJWyNYBQHh5VcZWuzD7cg4gOlQBudoCLfHIZYJLbkle2aKTDF3OXVyezJM1bzQDi47jInmByEaIjjzEtffvS4HydNdaCt6tOTy4kLsJj8/s1600/daddy%2527s+babe.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcZWZ1xzUo7V3gMrYBW-maXdZ0Bta-38-bkmlIJWyNYBQHh5VcZWuzD7cg4gOlQBudoCLfHIZYJLbkle2aKTDF3OXVyezJM1bzQDi47jInmByEaIjjzEtffvS4HydNdaCt6tOTy4kLsJj8/s320/daddy%2527s+babe.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5584759052653873826" /></a><br /><p class="MsoNoSpacing" align="center" style="text-align:center"><u><o:p><span style="text-decoration:none"> </span></o:p></u></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Yup, I’m still drunk.” I could smell my breath as it met the receiver.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Are you still going to church, though?” Jade must’ve not heard me.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Is it even possible…to still…so drunk the morning after the night I was…drunk?”</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Maybe you should take a shower, see you soon.” Jade hung up the phone leaving me to answer my own questions. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Why wasn’t I hung over yet? Still trashed, I opened my bedroom door trying to avoid…</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Good morning Livie Wivie! How’d you sleep babe?” My mother sounds like a Muppet baby on crack right after she wakes up. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Goodmoringandgood,” were the words that slurred from my mouth as I rushed into the bathroom. Shower first, small talk later. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">The cold water shocked goosebumps to emerge from my polluted pores. Someone told me cold showers were supposed be sobering. Someone lied. I slipped out of the shower, caught myself on the towel rack, and balanced myself over the sink.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I looked up at the mirror and saw the destruction of the night before. I looked like Whitney Houstan after meeting Bobby Brown. I needed water. I drank straight from the faucet, brushed my teeth, and whirled my naked, wrecked self back to my room. After finding something decent to wear I found myself back on the bed finally feeling hung over. Regrets from the night before began to pound on my head and bind around my stomach. I could still taste the Aristocrat but now with a hint of peppermint toothpaste. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Forgetting to knock, my brother, Jeff opened my door.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“I picked this up for you, just sign it,” he dropped a card next to me and made his exit.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">Thanks for being the best there is. Happy Father’s Day.”<o:p></o:p></i></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Frick! <span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>I cringed, smashing the card against my face. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I was going to be sick. I needed to be sick. Memories of the night I lost my shoes and dignity began to flood my head with speeding images. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%">Oh God, I danced on a bar. Oh God, I fell off the bar.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I was still reminiscing in the back seat on our way to church. My Dad seemed blissfully unaware of my misery. My mom had accepted my, “car sick,” excuse five miles into our journey. Jeff was shaking his head trying to rebuke me with his eyes. He was shaking too much. The car was shaking way too much. The road was shaking! I smashed down the button for the window. I launched my body out just in time. My dad made a sharp left onto a street where I continued to hurl 80 proof acid from my stomach.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>“Olivia, I guess you’re more than carsick huh?”My mom had been rubbing my back the entire time.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">When I was all done my mom decided I was in no shape for praising the lord. My dad had already turned the car around. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Once in the house I looked out the window to see my dad hosing off the evidence my Father’s day present. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">There are some things parents can’t teach you. For example, how to meet their eyes after you know you’ve embarrassed them. Or how do you prove to your parent that you love them after throwing up all over the one day that’s dedicated to show that. </p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-30688521114270283472011-03-11T12:06:00.000-08:002011-03-11T12:10:48.133-08:00Fatherless Fugitive(ch1?)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7OYmWo6DPRsW9MP1e8o79YrV8i1uwdHPAS5Gc6l2W3yWqApouPW0Ow1Q9AP-QnbZGE7QhvGNBim2vBmzo6gfU3wWu86xPADlgI9cbLPj2Q6OwWGs-2XY0YSHEhGDAXzMA99agKeS28bbs/s1600/colored-only1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 238px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7OYmWo6DPRsW9MP1e8o79YrV8i1uwdHPAS5Gc6l2W3yWqApouPW0Ow1Q9AP-QnbZGE7QhvGNBim2vBmzo6gfU3wWu86xPADlgI9cbLPj2Q6OwWGs-2XY0YSHEhGDAXzMA99agKeS28bbs/s320/colored-only1.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5582917354668336242" /></a><br /><p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">And we shuffled on past the graffiti walls hiding even from bright lights of watching stars. Mama and I were runaways now with our hair still wrapped like noodles on a spoon. I pulled my book bag off my shoulder and held it above the ground. I didn’t want no one facing what we put behind us with quick steps. Mama pulled out her cross that pointed at four directions. She stopped, and waited for the cross like it was a whirling compass. I never understood this; the metal chain didn’t come with a spinning needle on it pointing us north. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Alright, I know the way,” mama breathed.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Who was I to question her? Ain’t no way a nine year old girl knew which way was which. I had never gone to school but then again Mama never been either. She was the only person I had ever followed without question but then again I never had any other option.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">We walked across the old railroad leaving city streets. Now we were walking through high grass that whispered through our legs. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Ma, what about snakes?” I whispered.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%">`<span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>She picked up the pace showing she wasn’t listening. There were worse things than snakes. There’s the musky scent of a man shifting through my door with no lock. I swung my bag over my shoulder, running to catch up. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Once I was close again I could hear Mama’s soft plea with God.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Jesus, lead me and little Esther to greener pastures away from the wicked schemes of evil men.”</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Suddenly I realized we were being watched. Up ahead there was a dark silhouette leaning against a tall Sycamore. Fear pressed against my stomach like cautious hands. But my mama just thanked the sky and walked towards the stranger.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">That was the night I met my Father. That was the summer of 1958 when Mama and I ran like slaves from white men wearing white hoods looking through slits for two black girls who never learned to read any signs. We had walked right past the one that said “NO COLOREDS.” <o:p></o:p></i></p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-80910385708949551382011-03-11T12:05:00.000-08:002011-03-11T12:06:32.767-08:00His Crown and Glory<p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Running with sweat trickling down his forehead, he kept his eyes ahead; focusing<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"> </i>on escaping the surreal scene. Had he gotten away with it? No really. Had he? He wasn’t sure yet, so he<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal"> </i>continued to run<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"> </i>without direction. His bare feet hit the pavement with a rhythm that sounded in his head. He ran until his two foot symphony was the only thing he could hear.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>Malachi Server was the mayor’s son,<span style="color:red"> </span>and he had just done something quite reckless. Something so bad it made the adrenaline rush through his veins. Something so bad it left him feeling better than ever. On a day to day basis, Malachi is as edgy as a Beatles’ Cover Band. At seventeen he was what every teenager feared<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"> </i>becoming: a parent’s dreams come true. Malachi was the “golden child” of the city. He was never late and always early; he was polite and never spoke his mind. Sometime in between his father’s election and now, his life had turned into a life sentence. His body, mind, and soul held captive by the expectations of his father and his father’s voters.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>Malachi slowed to a jog. He decided it was safe enough for him to think. He began to rewind and replay the last hour.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">The evening was set, and their professionally decorated home looked like more of a museum in Malachi’s opinion. Pictures he didn’t even remember taking were displayed down every colorless wall. To no surprise, the fact that he had an opinion at all had been forgotten by his parents and everyone else who marched to his father’s beat; sometimes that fact was even lost by Malachi himself. His own mother had also forgotten, now she was just some figure in the dark lacking detail.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Malachi loosened his tie, thinking about the loss of another Friday night. The Mayor would accept some shiny award and take pictures. Take, take, and take pictures. He dragged himself out of bed and made his way down the stairs into the crowd of beautifully dressed strangers. In a sea of<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"> “</i>suits” and “gowns”, he struggled his way through the crowd and over to his parent’s table. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">When everyone had settled and found their seats, Malachi’s<span style="color:red"> </span>father made a grand entrance through the room’s double doors. The Mayor drew an<span style="color:red"> </span>eruption of applause as he sauntered towards the table. He shook hands, threw winks, and shot the occasional finger gun. The Mayor’s eyes fell on Malachi, his smile twitched. He hugged his wife and brought his son in for a close, stiff hug.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>“Boy, could your tie be any more crooked?” he asked through a painful smile. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">A camera flashed. Malachi snapped out of his daze, awoke from his sleep, and glowered at the ungrateful man that stood before him. His father, his father’s voters, and their big night suddenly seemed insignificant. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">His body began to feel feverish. He burned with desire to act. He was angry and needed to act. His father began to speak to the crowd and Malachi slowly left his seat. He didn’t know what he was doing. He was up needing to do something. The audience shushed to a whisper. Eyes were on him. Something needed to happen. With quick feet and no sense Malachi succumbed to the burning. He made like a wicked force charging for his father’s head. With a quick leap from the ground, Malachi was able to get a hand on the Mayor’s toupee. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">He looked back once. He saw the Mayor’s face. He didn’t look back again. All of a sudden the suits and gowns had faces. He saw horror, fury, and confusion. Mouths opened, pinched, and turned. Malachi bolted but took mental pictures. Took pictures of them all.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Now, Malachi was running for his freedom and running from his captors: from his parents, from the voters, from the fucking black-tie dinner party for which he had put on a happy face. He stopped for a moment; caught his breath, soaking it in. The wind played with his hair and chilled across his dark skin. Goosebumps or not, he was not trying to turn back to that life any time soon. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Malachi made his hand into a fist<span style="color:red"> </span>remembering how with one hand, he had secured his father’s distinguished toupee. His old man’s crown and glory was intertwined between his fingers. At this moment, Malachi wished more than ever that he had a friend to laugh with. He could still hear everything! Ah, the ringing of his name being screamed as he ran like hell<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">. </i>As he escaped, it was as though his parents were seeing him for the first time. Their faces frozen, unrecognizable from the family portraits on the wall. The Mayor’s face was so tense; it looked as if he had aged thirty years. Malachi tasted sweetness of the smile that spread over his face would leave an everlasting taste to never be forgotten. He knew, even then, that his actions were going to be wrong later but they felt oh-so-right at that single, incandescent moment. He began to think of the man that he feared becoming.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>In turn, Warren Server was the mayor, all-American, semi-devoted husband, and a father-figure. He had always been a man who craved power and thrived on teaching his son to be exactly like him. Whoever turned out exactly like Warren Server would not be a stranger to success. Mayor Server had a hard time remembering the last time he heard the word failure (, although, this could be due to his selective hearing.) Warren’s biggest downfall came the day he had seen his hair had run away from his hairline.<span style="color: red"> </span>The last thing Server needed was a reminder of his one weakness: his age. So, he decided to cover up his flaw. In spite of his age, he had the pride of a thousand lions and looked as if he had the strength of a juiced up bear. His alarming height made people automatically look up at him, and his<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"> </i>intensifying<span style="color:red"> </span>stare could steal respect with one unsettling gaze into someone’s eyes. Malachi could remember the friends he used to have and how they’d been easily scared off. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">They were sitting on the front steps that day. Matt and Riley had helped out moving into the Warren’s new house. The fenced in home/castle was an extra 30 minutes away from Malachi’s school which meant his first day of home-school would start the next week. His dad had just announced he was running for Mayor which signified a fresh start or whatever. Now Malachi’s were moping about our separation. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Dude your dad blows,” Riley said.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Truer words had never been spoken. Malachi’s hands gripped around my neck. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Yeah man and he’s a re-<i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">pub</i>,” Matt’s dumb slang for republican sounded more like a mental disorder. Re-pub, Re-tard; same basic idea.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>Matt and Riley weren’t convincing Malachi of anything. He just sat there nodding to every word they said. He knew they were right but he could really love my Dad sometimes. His Dad was still around after all. They were African American and he’s still around (beating statistics), paying for stuff with real money. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">Real </i>money. Even though his dad was never around for Malachi’s science fairs and school plays he was around for other stuff. He’d shown for the first half of one basketball game, something Malachi had tried just for him. He was around but things were changing for the worse. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Malachi.”<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Malachi didn’t know how long his Father had been leaning out the front door. He had no idea if he’s heard anything his friends had been saying.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Yeah, Dad?” <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">His father’s color shed to ash. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“I mean YES Dad?” <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">His friends shifted around and looked up at the man with large knuckles and cracked, thirsty skin.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Wash up for dinner.” He looked down at Riley and Matt with flared nostrils. “Your parents are on their way.”<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Oh! Well, I didn’t call mine, I thought we’d stay a while and get Mal set up,” Riley kept his eyes on his shoes.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">The Mayor reached up to touch the top of his head. He combed through his gleaming, high priced hair.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Don’t worry it’s fine if you wait for them out here.” The Mayor turned and that was that.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Malachi stood, ashamed of his obedience.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>“Uh, see you guys around. We could go see that new Zombie flick Friday!” Malachi saw the damage had been done, recovery hopeless.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Just go man,” Riley said.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“We’ll figure something out,” Matt said. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">But Malachi knew that he was no longer included in the “<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">we’ll</i>.”<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></i></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">As Malachi sat on the side of the road thinking about the Mayor’s eyes and just how scary they can get, he decided it was probably best for him to face his fear before those eyes came and found him. Malachi got up and turned around.<span style="color:red"> </span>As he dragged his feet across the sidewalk, he thought about the repercussions this night would have. He would get the lecture, and, then, he would get his sentence. His punishment would be a reminder of that moment when he was running for his freedom, thinking that it was possible. The drag his feet had once had soon discovered their confident march. <span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">He was home. And there was no confidence. That was gone. The door clicked behind him but brought in a chilling draft of fear. Malachi was taken to the expected mindset. With the adrenaline high worn off, panic paralyzed his legs. Malachi was stuck in the foyer and the Mayor was standing at the top of the stairs. Father versus son was an ancient tale but Malachi knew that this was no Cinderella, rise of underdog story. He knew that he was dead where he stood; his legs had raised their white flag already. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">The Mayor’s eyes were steady as they moved from his face to the object drooling out of his pants’ pocket. Hair. Malachi had stuffed the toupee but still fanning out for everyone to see. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>The headlights from a passing car lit up the halls and lit up the face up the stairs. Malachi felt a trickle tear down his leg. Nightmares to come would not do the Mayor’s face justice. The eyes of a mad addict without his vice. The nose of a blood-thirsty bull. Lips drawn back into a heating mouth. Once there had been a neck but now raised shoulders and brooding chest meeting the concrete chin. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">It speaks.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“You, my boy, are in deep shit,” the Mayor dropped down a step.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>Malachi wanted a gun, a knife, mace, and a rape whistle. He needed all of them to appear magically at his feat. He wanted to call upon some God. He closed his eyes. He silent prayed: <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height: 200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">Oh, great mighty Zeus let your aim be awesome and your bolt be quick.</span></i><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""> <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">He opened one eye and the Mayor was two steps away from the floor. The floor. The floor Malachi’s feet were arrested to. What could he do or say to save him from the unknown aftermath.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Hey dad…pops…Father, let’s take it easy because I’ve been sick all week,” Malachi’s voice broke, making a strong case.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">The Mayor skipped both stairs and hit the floor a loud thud mimicking the sound of Malachi’s heart. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">More trickling. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“The way you sprinted out of here earlier didn’t send that message,” he was getting closer; he was a moving sky scraper shadowing over his flesh and blood.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“In fact you should probably be running now,” he was standing quite close now. The heaving of his chest was shoving Malachi’s chest in giving him less air to breathe. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Dad, I’m sorry I crossed the...”<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“The fucking line!”<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Malachi was now losing everything. Losing feeling in his toes, losing his deserved satisfaction, and losing faith of obtainable freedom.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“Where’s mom?” her vacant face flashed in his mind and he wanted to know why he was standing alone before Satan’s right-hand. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif"">“She’s not going to help you, son, her bottle is empty and she’s already snoring,” satisfaction crinkled his features. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>Malachi knew what was coming. It had been coming, burning up like stomach acid. Bulging knuckles: the last thing he saw before shutting his eyes.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Malachi cried the entire time, feeling everything and knowing no one. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><o:p> </o:p></span></p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-33691173984950397072010-11-15T07:30:00.000-08:002010-11-15T07:32:54.711-08:00Suspended Nightmare<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIbp8l4kL0Kb03SkTAOT-gMckTwJKWz-h0ZSDDvDeUwxSq_pi0MTPzgPeZk7AL1BmZzQ5rD7fqSQS1p-6baUUAn6axVnaGc-Cl7MmXdj7sWs9uT3XgPUbjNyZgArHjI6nhCQrb1NICmM15/s1600/great_horned_owl.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIbp8l4kL0Kb03SkTAOT-gMckTwJKWz-h0ZSDDvDeUwxSq_pi0MTPzgPeZk7AL1BmZzQ5rD7fqSQS1p-6baUUAn6axVnaGc-Cl7MmXdj7sWs9uT3XgPUbjNyZgArHjI6nhCQrb1NICmM15/s400/great_horned_owl.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539799856955445122" /></a><br /><p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">Like a dark cloud, they fill the sky. Their beaks break windows and clean eye sockets. Razor talons deeply cut human flesh leaving strokes of thick red proof splattering the ground. Heard above, a choir of shrieks and off scale pitches sings over people below, echoing from door to door with a volume that never dies.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I’m surrounded by birds when I walk into the crisp morning air. I try to tell myself that this will be a better day. They can mind their own business as long as I do the same. I’m guessing they’ve been waiting for me. I turn down my iPod to be sure no sneak attacks are made. It’s a great risk if I’m unable to hear the piercing cry of a crow swooping from its perch. So far so good I’m sure they’re not all watching me right now. “CawwwCAWWWW,” a black winged demon cuts me off and stares into me with its black beads confirming all of my fears. My heart flutters out of control as my walk turns into a trot. One crow brought attention to the others, now they begin swooping from one building to the next. My rule? They always have right-of-way. I continue on to class, adjusting my sunglasses hiding a stream of tears. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I am ashamed. Hyperventilating and crying fit into my daily routine. As long as I imagine the horrible things that they’re capable of, I will remain haunted. They are everywhere I go and they are plotting against me. What if they grip onto my bookbag? What if they grip onto my skull? What if they hold on and never let go? Most people think my anxiety is hilarious. I really wished I did too.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>I was home one weekend from college and my dad was shaking with laughter during the entire movie of Alfred Hitchcock’s the Birds. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>“Olivia, are you crying?!”</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>My dad hit pause, freezing a violent seagull on screen. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>I was sitting in the corner of the couch, my eyes stuck to the t.v. expecting for the gull to start attacking uncontrolled by any remote.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>“Dad, just play it, I’m not even scared,” my voice was steady but monotone. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I leaned toward our television as hundreds of birds attacked the actors. I was crying for the people because I knew that the birds would be merciless and it could happen again in real life, my life. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">It had started with an owl. Expanded wings tilted as if measuring the height of my car. A replay in slow motion occurs when I remember the eyes. Like an insomniac the yellow eyes cracked out in terror and reached my heart commanding a faster rhythm. “WHOOOWOOOO.” The sound round and hollow, identical to the eyes </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">The morning after the attack I felt hung over with spinning flashbacks that I hoped to God were make believe. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">I tried to laugh away my fear and tell my owl story in the exact light of my nightmare. I started to imitate the wing-span of my flying demon I performed in front of many people, putting on the show that worked to convince me that I was exaggerating. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">A few months after the owl night, the truth had begun descended down on me on different occasions. 4:00am brought to me a malfunctioning alarm clock in the form of a crow. “Caw, caw, CAW,” jerked me awake, the bird stayed outside of my window for twenty minutes. My room is located on the third floor of my buildings and there are no trees. For twenty minutes a crow hovered outside of my window without a branch to restfully perch on. I sat awake and let the bird verbally harass me. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">By downplaying my phobia I’m able to briefly stuff the anxiety it truly brings me. But this fear is as unyielding as the grave. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>I show my true colors by alerting the public. “Leave them alone, they don’t need any bread!!!” Two jerk-offs at the beach were feeding the birds as if they were needy, homeless children. I don’t go to the beach often especially now that I’ve noticed the overcrowded skies and the idiots who bring them closer. I tried just napping on the sand. Closing my eyes and pretending that the watchful seagulls had vanished. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">“Look how close that one is to her head!” I heard my friends whisper and laugh softly before I lifted my hat off my face in time to see a bird tip-toeing closer to my head.</p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%"><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>This of course sparked spastic flapping. My arms fanned defending my head. The bird wings moved like a puppet on strings, clapping towards me before taking off. I stared wide-eyed into space trying to prevent myself from letting every bird memory take me away to hysteria. That cued the head nodding, foot stomping laughter from the chorus of my sympathetic friends. I got a better idea of two things that day: the phrase, “sleep with one eye open,” and the sacrifice friends make for a potential good laugh. </p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="text-indent:.5in;line-height:200%">It’s humiliating. Running to the car in a Walmart parking lot. Dreading the days my friend’s suggest, “Let’s go to the beach.” Stopping in mid-step terrified in the shadow of a bird flying over me. Nervous breaks occurring thinking of all of my duck and cover stories. I, a 20 year old grown up will run away from a chirping blue bird that twitches at me the wrong way. I’m always looking up waiting for the next air attack. I want to escape this nightmare that drifts over me, but that day seems to be flying further and further away. </p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-73693952253811272082010-10-08T15:35:00.000-07:002010-10-08T15:36:05.194-07:00Glow In the Dark Stars<p class="MsoNoSpacing" align="center" style="text-align:center"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>They light up the dark and become the most beautiful thing in the night’s darkness. Solo they are just but a dim glimpse of an illuminated spec, but together they triumph over darkness with their strong shining might. I admired the glow in the dark stars from the rooms of my friends. I remember drifting off to sleep as I gazed at their beauty.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>I’m enchanted by how you can have stars so close within your reach. You can actually reach for the stars and then have them at your finger tips. I was jealous that my friends had such wonder staring down on them at night, watching over them as they slept and lighting up their darkness.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing" style="line-height:200%"><span style="font-size:12.0pt; line-height:200%;font-family:"Times New Roman","serif""><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"> </span>I never got glow in the dark stars for myself because my parents did not relish the idea of some “thing” sticking to our ceiling. They were not just some “thing” to me. To me they represented and still represent a wondrous way to grasp the stars. To reach and to obtain. <o:p></o:p></span></p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-58209866802816019292010-09-13T10:55:00.000-07:002010-09-13T11:09:10.765-07:00Cardboard BoxHer tiny voice drifted from the backseat.<div>"I didn't know it would be like that."</div><div><br /></div><div>Her father just kept driving.</div><div><br /></div><div>"You didn't tell me what it would be like."</div><div><br /></div><div>"I told you not to come," he father reassured. </div><div><br /></div><div>"Yea I just didn't know."</div><div><br /></div><div>Silence fell as they heard the cardboard box knock around in the trunk.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Tears began to flood over her words.</div><div>"She wasn't that sick...she had time."</div><div><br /></div><div>He father's eyes consoled her from the rear view mirror.</div><div>"She was old, she would've wanted it this way."</div><div><br /></div><div>That wasn't ever going to be enough for her.</div><div>"How can we be sure? We never asked her and she couldn't tell us."</div><div><br /></div><div>They pulled up to the house. As she walked in the front door she saw the rusted shovel, glossed with mud, leaning impatiently. She turned around to see her father out of the car and opening the trunk.</div><div><br /></div><div>He lifted the cardboard box and cradled it,adoringly, under his arm. As he closed the trunk his eyes searched and met hers.</div><div><br /></div><div>"Go inside," he said. "She'll be by the tree in the back...whenever you're ready." </div><div><br /></div>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-29190946212372909672010-07-20T20:03:00.000-07:002010-07-20T20:16:07.239-07:00Reason:searched and found<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFZGCbVrHvFitgg7r4JFY1SJqSeQp5hEGjkSBJVmp7GRwPaqw5ugan52E6WDijp4BoAKTfmXT8Hvd4guc2scpeTHt7tGATqBIqSDHBk7emkoXowD4CpmYSa9X-m9lM_IPh6B5yNtAa2JDo/s1600/the+reason.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 214px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5496192995386603490" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFZGCbVrHvFitgg7r4JFY1SJqSeQp5hEGjkSBJVmp7GRwPaqw5ugan52E6WDijp4BoAKTfmXT8Hvd4guc2scpeTHt7tGATqBIqSDHBk7emkoXowD4CpmYSa9X-m9lM_IPh6B5yNtAa2JDo/s320/the+reason.jpg" /></a><br /><div>God is the reason I write.<br />Me pen is the fork that allows me to devour every detail of his splendor<br /><br />God is the reason I love<br />He loves harder, faster, unconditionally more than could be understood<br /><br />God is <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">the</span> reason my faith lives<br />my faith had fallen ill to the fears of this world<br />but has been revived by the truth of his words<br /><br />God is my answer<br />to every question that is too old for me<br /><br /><br />God is the reason for my beauty<br />It's like faith<br />I may not see it but because he says it's there<br />beauty is there<br /><br /><br />And God is the reason I wait<br />One day descending<br />this curious sky will be understood<br />with the rescue, the reunion<br />the ending married to the beginning<br />the sky will make way for a transcendent ceiling<br />ceiling of eternal <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">award</span> and a life that is forever lived<br />in the arms of my God, master, father<br /><br />God is the reason I write<br />my written dreams come true<br />the possibilities are traced endlessly<br /><br />Careful, every man's dream is different<br />but every purpose is the same<br />And the destination is clear even when the road is not</div>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-32959071219754756242010-06-18T11:05:00.001-07:002010-07-20T20:27:04.235-07:00Oval Park<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPycjiDDX-xRHw93IXdTtKTrgD-ID2H5sKtjJ3jAv1i2KfejMAZvLpzYNoDOfM5F9KOcaLnhZSrxmOBvIKDABWjdvAPN7ZP8aSAnj_WF4icSxD2ICTDTCqD7yrjI3jmZ9Q-YXRMRtH62CY/s1600/Oval+Park+playground.JPG"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5496194203755941138" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPycjiDDX-xRHw93IXdTtKTrgD-ID2H5sKtjJ3jAv1i2KfejMAZvLpzYNoDOfM5F9KOcaLnhZSrxmOBvIKDABWjdvAPN7ZP8aSAnj_WF4icSxD2ICTDTCqD7yrjI3jmZ9Q-YXRMRtH62CY/s320/Oval+Park+playground.JPG" /></a><br /><div><span style="COLOR: rgb(51,51,51);font-family:'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;font-size:13;color:#99ffff;" class="Apple-style-span" >I step onto the playground. The streetlights are the only thing left to illuminate the glorious Oval Park. My very own ghost town awaits me. The wind alerts the swingsets of my arrival followed by the high pitched sound of rusted metal pacing back and forth.<br /><br />My walk to my familiar spot underneath the jungle gym is matched with the aroma of mulch and pure summer night air.<br /><br />We sat underneath the jungle gym right amongst all the mulch we could ever want. The smell of the dirt interwined with the smell that was seaping from the glass blue bowl. There was silence besides the occasional "flick, flick" of a stubborn lighter. The wind would tease us by pretending to be sounds of foreign feet breaking the earth or whispers of an unwelcomed guess. It wasn't the smartest place to get high, but it was brilliant in its own mysitc wonder.<br /><br />We knew hours previous children had been sitting on the top of this jungle gym kingdom believing they could take flight. No we sat underneath convinced that we too could take flight.<br /><br />Under the sky the stars blinked curiously at us and God cringed at our stupidity. We stared back. In the sober darkness we soaked in all the little moments that we will remember when we are back at school wishing that we had been left there underneath the dark, summer sky.</span></div>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-90387810961252670702010-06-18T10:52:00.000-07:002010-06-18T11:01:01.387-07:00Onward and OnwardWhen I am sheltered in his presence, I am shielded by every second thought. I am shielded from the deeper lessons of this cloudy affair. I see only our underground tunnel with the future driving, speeding with no escape in sight. He bewitches me with all of his hidden talents and the sweet new flavor of his world. He leaves me starving for discovery and growth. But a case of chronic bulimia occurs with an aftertaste of truth. I choke on bitter flavors that taints all the sweetness of his filling meal. I begin gagging on the unbearable truth. Right when I think it's going to take me, I'm saved by his Heimlich of lies maneuvering the sensible logic out. Dislodging doubt, questions, and the right answers.frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-73732896893969260062010-06-18T10:51:00.000-07:002010-06-18T11:11:37.429-07:00Fearfully and Wonderfully<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOebZbnayUSiThVynlRm84A3FgzUFU9jQ5588lb-Mb_mZw41w42stZ4lbBDyGIjxDnFq0OfAxmozeW8X12GOQ7-78mkfXRELU-PXPeIKbFerzKI9Q1uokgf63Rhfu1TVMkpVfch2ULaQb2/s1600/feafully+and+wonderfully.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 318px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOebZbnayUSiThVynlRm84A3FgzUFU9jQ5588lb-Mb_mZw41w42stZ4lbBDyGIjxDnFq0OfAxmozeW8X12GOQ7-78mkfXRELU-PXPeIKbFerzKI9Q1uokgf63Rhfu1TVMkpVfch2ULaQb2/s320/feafully+and+wonderfully.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5484177951508565170" /></a><br /><p class="MsoNoSpacing"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"><span style="Times New Roman","serif"font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>The feeling is pulsing through my veins. Hello again, I never thought I’d feel you here again. Here, where darkness clouded it’s vision. My heart could not see ahead and never dreamed forward. I thought it was the end, it should have been the death of me. I had stopped hearing, feeling, knowing you. I was left in the company with fear, unfaithfulness, and defeat.<o:p></o:p></span></i></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"><span style="Times New Roman","serif"font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><o:p> </o:p></span></i></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"><span style="Times New Roman","serif"font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;">You heard me all along. Your heard me blaming you, cursing you, and disowning you. You felt me all along. You felt ever fistful heartache, you felt all of my falls, all of my blow outs. You’ve known me. Known me when I loved you, when I left you, when I forgot you. I had given up and then you stepped into my ring. After watching patiently in my corner you fought back. My enemies didn’t stand a chance once you brought down your mighty hand. This would be the last round of bullying and setbacks. Ring, goes the first bell. You made contact with my opponent with the your unfailing love for me. Ring, Ring goes the second bell. Darkness, was blinded by your strike of freedom and sacrifice. I heard the last ring. He had beaten my threat with his grace and his promise that he will always be in my corner. <o:p></o:p></span></i></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"><span style="Times New Roman","serif"font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;"><o:p> </o:p></span></i></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal"><span style="Times New Roman","serif"font-family:";font-size:12.0pt;">He reached for me and the he embraced me. My sins, my shame, my fears, and everything that filled the space between me and him. And for the wonder that happened next..thank you. I wanted to thank him for every gifted second that he revived me. His whisper of peace swept away everything that I should have apologized for. But those things remains in the darkness; forgotten, alone, without me. <o:p></o:p></span></i></p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-21821272373116979932010-06-18T10:48:00.000-07:002010-06-18T11:13:43.885-07:00I Am Eve<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.blogcdn.com/www.slashfood.com/media/2009/11/apple-1259363215.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 425px; height: 278px;" src="http://www.blogcdn.com/www.slashfood.com/media/2009/11/apple-1259363215.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><p class="MsoNormal">She took her stance in the middle of the first garden.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">The teasing tree shielded her from the watchful sky, his watchful eye.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">The leaves hissed her closer but the wind sat steadfast.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Her hand stretched upward reaching for her downfall.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Fingers brushed the heaven sent fruit,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">a fruit that was flavored by knowledge and truth.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">She had been blinded by evil desire.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">She stretched</p> <p class="MsoNormal">fingers spread like spider legs,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">fingers ready to take</p> <p class="MsoNormal">The sphere was shaped for her palm.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Lust brought her lips to kissing </p> <p class="MsoNormal">the forbidden fruit before biting deeply. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Bitter remorse seeped down to her core.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Sour disgrace stained her lips.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">The sun peaked through the branch-</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Caught, Spotted, seen.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">The fruit, the betrayer fell from her touch</p> <p class="MsoNormal">She took back her place in the middle of the first garden</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Naked. </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9167246836105914852.post-34354293052452583412010-06-18T10:45:00.000-07:002010-06-18T10:48:18.123-07:00Pen Strokesmy pen hits the paper<div>it strikes a cord </div><div>hearing your music</div><div>in my head</div><div>strumming my fingers along</div><div><br /></div><div>lyrics on your sheet music</div><div>matches words on this page</div><div><br /></div><div>i paint you here </div><div>you paint me there</div><div><br /></div><div>this paper </div><div>my canvas </div><div>your paper</div><div>your measure</div><div><br /></div><div>co-write my pen stroke</div><div>looping, tracing</div><div>letters upon letters</div><div><br /></div><div>your rhythm circulates </div><div>through my fingers</div><div><br /></div><div>your music </div><div>my words </div><div>this song.</div>frankieghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16783654226692096196noreply@blogger.com0